the rest is still unwritten

Do you know what, I'm sorry for what I've become. For the person I've let myself become. For letting myself fall down, fall apart. I wanna say sorry to myself. Sorry for that I closed out everyone and thrown away my life for a while. This is not the person I wanna be. I don't wanna feel this way, I will be able to feel happiness and joy again and stop pretending I don't care. This is not me. Where am I?